It's been one year since I had this idea of writing a newsletter. I'm immensely grateful to everyone who has taken the time to like, comment, share and subscribe to this newsletter. I'm glad I started anyways.
I started writing this newsletter because I was bored and I also needed an escape. In this past year, I didn't read as much as I wanted but here we are now. I also left my book club. I don't know how I feel about that.
I've been away for about, a month? Two? I'm not even sure. I didn't know what to write (I still don't) and I had exams last month that kept me very occupied. This year was supposed to be about consistency but I'm very sure I'm doing lesser than I planned.
° this is a reminder for you to wash your foking towel.
Anyhow.
I'm extremely bothered and weighed down by the fact that I have nothing to do at the moment. A lot of people around me seem like they have it made already. Like, they're growing and proud of their growth. Sometimes, it feels like they're rubbing it in my face whereas they aren't. It's not supposed to make me feel how I feel. And no, I'm not envious or jealous of them. I just wish I can find my footing too. And it bothers me a lot that it's taking longer than I expected. My birthday is this month too. I'm scared, actually. Very scared and I don't know why. I feel like crying anytime I remember, lol.
Lately, I'm constantly reminded that I've aged. Yeah, I know it's normal to age but it's literally in my face. Everyone is growing older and it's quite scary. The adolescents then have now become parents. Teenagers then are looking at getting married. I knew a time like this would come, but I definitely wasn't so prepared for it. The transition is so fluid. I don't know if anyone else understands. Everybody con dey fineeee. But then, the pressure to do certain things is there. I really hope I won't be dragged in the crowd and completely lose myself.
Yeah so I made a logo. It's long overdue but here it is.
Plus, what would you be doing this summer? I'm learning stuff about social media management. I still need another thing to do.
And, I need bastard money.
Lol I need bastard money too.. surely we would find our footings