Relationship as a form of attachment-an extension of a part of you to someone.
Hey.
I've thought of writing something before now and I didn't know what to write. I’ve had this piece for a while and I thought, “why not?” Since it also fits into what has been happening for a while.
As usual, I like to go straight to the point. The topic is a little bit serious. Today, I want to talk about friends.
*Relationship(s) and friendship(s) is/are used interchangeably in regard to this post.
The nature of love is kind of complex and we can't thoroughly talk about it. So, this love I'll be talking about would be narrowed down to friendship. Platonic friendship. I don't actually have pointers or definitions for love. I just have questions and probably comparisons.
As a person, I've had many unpleasant experiences with friends. For me, I think friends should be there for each other. That's like the main thing I want to do for a friend. But there's always a question that comes up, “is it worth it?”
Second of all, I believe in acts of service. For instance, if my friend says he/she really wants something and I have the power to do it, why not? I'd gladly do it since it's within my power. Then another question arises, would he/she do the same for me? I don't like a one sided relationship/friendship. It's completely normal to do things for your friends without expecting something in return, but as I said earlier, I'm talking from past experiences. So, once I see I'm the only one putting efforts, I reduce my efforts to the barest minimum.
Then, there's a question of being played or feeling like the stupid one in the relationship, especially when my gestures are not reciprocated.
Now, I do the things I want to do because I want to do it, not because this person is my friend. I think you should understand.
Thanks to Jewel for the small motivation. I was going to combine the newsletter for the month with December's but then, I figured I'd have lots of things to say when the time comes.
If I were to draw a curve that described me this month, then a velocity-time graph would be more appropriate.
I read less this month, I listened to more nonsense and above all, I'm trying to work on a Christmas story with someone, although I'm not sure I'll be allowed to show people that. This month was really a boring month for me. And oh, I have a good friend here already. She's such a sweet girl. Insomnia has been doing me dirty lately and as a result, I've been writing really weird stuff.
Hoping to pepper y'all next month with pictures of my babe and I. If you like anticipate. Lmao. I dey play o. 😂❤️
Adiós,
Comrade Sapphire.