Birthdays are normal days, but then we have like 364 other normal days a year so one has to be special.
But as long as you don't make conscious effort to make your birthday special, it'll keep on going by like any other day.
~F.
Hiya! Happy weekend! It's a beautiful weekend, isn't it!?
Well, I believe that the answer to that question depends on how well the week itself went. Meaning, your beautiful week is directly proportional to your beautiful weekend. Except you want to just change the narratives yourself and make your weekend beautiful no matter what. Omo, man u dey show me pepper.
In the last two months, I've received many messages that read "I'm proud of you" even from people who have no idea of what I did or what I'm doing. What does "I'm proud of you mean" to you? Do you mean, "keep it up?" If this was what you mean, thank you.
Did you mean, "you dey try sha, but you no fit?" Did you mean, "I see your hard work and I wish we can talk about how you're doing?" Do you mean, "our conversations to keep you going have impacted you more than I expected?"
Well, I feel not everyone deserves to say that to me. A milder version of "I'm proud of you" should suffice. Maybe say something like, "well done" or "you're doing well." What do I mean by someone that deserves to say "I'm proud of you?"
That aside, let me give you one important gist about my week. I was a year older on Tuesday and I don't like my birthdays. It reminds me of how unappreciated I am. I wish I wrote exams that day. Before you react, listen to my rant.
All year, I'm made to think like I don't do enough, so when I see messages that are supposed to be heartwarming, all I see is deceit, lies and hypocrisy.
It's normal to appreciate and compliment people, right and their birthday should not be an exception. So, what if all year, its the same, no "thank you", "you are doing better" or something similar. To be honest, doing your best every time gets tiring and everyone needs something that keeps them going. Mine is words of encouragement.
This year, I wanted to spend that day alone with my phone switched off. I wanted to focus on how well I've come. Ngl, growing up is tough. If I wanted to be happy, I should be happy and vice versa. But life had other plans. That day, I was anxious, negatively overwhelmed and I wanted to cry (I did cry though). I even went to shop but nobody knew about the birthday (I hate being harassed for cake). I was neither sad nor happy, that doesn't go well with me. I should be either happy or sad, no in between.
Birthdays should be special, whether you spend it with people or in solitude, but if you grew up with the mentality that it's just a normal day, then you won't agree with me.
The crazy part about this is that you could throw me a party then I walk in and hiss. Lmao.
I didn't buy cake because I don't like cakes. What's the point of buying if I won't eat? I don't know if you get me sha, omo. Someone told me something about birthdays and for him, I'll do something next year.
I am currently reading "a broken people's playlist" by Chimeka Garricks. I should have finished the book o, but this week dey somehow.
What's your take on birthdays? I'm still open to receiving birthday gifts sha.🥰
Priscilla O. Williams, Bessy and Jewel, love you guyss.😗
Unrelated but: maa listen si Dunsin Oyekan atí Apostolos.
I look forward to getting feedbacks from you. Till I come your way next week, I remain your good friend, Sapphire. x
I like the fact that I could relate … felt at home while reading this … so proud of you my girl and yes! That “unrelated” o relate baje
I don't know what to feel about my birthdays. I'm mostly sad and easily triggered on my birthday. My parents barely remember. LOL.
Nice piece.